This may be what I rename this blog. Life has taken a turn for me, a big of fucking bad ass captain breast cancer part 2 defeatous and kill me now turn.
My ramblings, photos and such were never terribly cheery - but never too wretched and imo sometimes pure beauty.
But now comes the raw real emotions that include the gloom & doom on bad days.
Some sure to be precious to me only moments, photos, idioms, whimsical insights. etc. on the good days. And let's throw in some panicked shortened lifetime chatterings just for fun.
Disclaimer: There will be attempts at humor, sometimes very funny - relax and LOL! Humor is always good to hide behind. I even fool me! Guess that's kinda good...
As I write this post my brother Steve calls and I can not answer the phone as I will fall to bits, not just a hundred little puzzle pieces that my grand child's smile or a hug could piece me back together with.
I would shattered into a million pieces each so splintered that it would be painful to both parties to piece me back together. So I do not answer the phone. I can not answer as you see - Steve, my big bro who I adore...his wife, his life is in a very similar space as mine & Jim's.
I love you Steve & Lori. Let's hang onto life & until it's time to let go.
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You made me cry sis,but I was alone,so it was a good cry,with tears of understanding and compassion.We all want to hang onto this beautiful world,this life we embrace so much.Your love will last forever in family and friends.Love,BB
ReplyDeleteWords fail me, except to say that I totally agree, cancer sucks. Writing you as a total stranger, your words are palpable to me and have brought tears. I am sorry for your difficult journey, and hope that there is peace for you and your family through these difficult times.
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